luxury of time

sometimes, i really wonder why i can't get the luxury of time at the palm of my hands unlike other people. i've asked that a long time ago when i found myself being so busy and alone even if i could have taken a time off. like this thursday night, we were all supposed to meet a deadline. if there's one thing i dislike, it's missing or even just being delayed when it comes to deadlines. sooo what usually happens? i don't get to sleep. might i add that yesterday we waited for my mom's doctor for hours when we were supposed to be home by 730. her clinic hours are from 3 to 7pm, but she usually comes at 630pm. talk about being prompt. i wonder what could be the reason for such delay? we got home around 1030 to 11 all thanks to the traffic caused by the road construction. and so i do my articles. i finish them, but oh wow, it was already early morning friday when i got to finish it. i come to school only to find out that they can upload their articles over the weekend. i'm not complaining at all about them. i don't mind at all since the deadline's still on monday, but i want to know why i can never stop myself from doing a task that others take a time out on while i still insist on doing it. haaay, i wanna know why.