nuhaegae..

stupid me! haha i didn't greet him on our 9th month right when i set my eyes on him. that was a first! oh well, i was hurrying since i didn't want them to be late for the competition. i cheered, took pictures and got burnt. haha

this was taken on july 14,2006 around 6 pm. lawrence's birthday and a few hours after that, (if you call that few) ayun na, we're a couple na. :) i'm posting this now that he's actually mad at me since i've been acting differently daw today, and i didn't tell him why i'm acting this way.

this is my way of telling him how i'm feeling right now. ^_____^

glenn, :) we've been really really great friends from the start and i consider you one of the closest besides that you own my heart right now. especially now. at this very moment. :) a lot of people's thoughts have tried corrupting my mind. it gets frustrating. hehe you know me. sadly, i know i scare you 'cause before i'm a future thinker. yep, before, i was. hehe hmmm was a little bit sad when i found out your reaction for my past wallpaper. that little thing got stuck in my mind even though it was months ago. haha i'm an idealist. and i honestly hate listening to people saying "ayoko magsalita ng tapos" and "Don't say forever." it destroys everything i've believed in, and hoped for. but with you, i realized that every person has really their own piece of mind. i know you think that way, and i don't want to scare you any further that's why i changed the wallpaper. haha:)

but writing this entry, made me realize that i can never be brainwashed. this is my way of loving. this is my way of loving you. i can't force myself to think like other people realistically as they would say. cause all i know is right now. at this very moment. I AM IN LOVE. I'M LOVING. NAGMAMAHAL AKO and it's VERY REAL TO ME. i've learned so many things from you flashie, and i've learned to control myself and think about what you think. hehe i respect that. i've accepted that a long time ago. and like what i told you before, :) i only want you happy. :) it's not cliche. i don't believe in that shit that it's cliche cause kaye knows how i exactly feel for you a long time ago but i didn't tell you. i could hold back my feelings just to see you happy. if we weren't together, i'd still be happy with you smiling for another woman. at least i get to still see you smile right?

BUT-

i don't know how God made it all possible, but i thank Him. cause here we are, we're together and happy. i just couldn't tell you through yahoo messenger or plain text message. it wouldn't give justice to what i'm feeling right now. i'm glad i met you. i'm glad our paths cross and even though you don't believe in fate, destiny, future and forever (the things i fervently believe in) those fairy tale endings, i'm happy i am with you. no one can put into words how i am feeling right now. maybe our opposite thoughts are just the reason why we're bound together now. you say the present, the here, the now is important. i so definitely agree with that only bearing two things in my mind- to make you happy and the other one is i'm still thinking of how to say it. haha :)


I LOVE YOU FLASHIE. :) EVERY SECOND IS WORTH HAVING YOU. AND I KNOW EXACTLY WHERE I WANT TO BE RIGHT NOW- BESIDE YOU GIVING A RIB CRUSHING HUG. :)