calendar blues

i remember him complaining about my calendar entries in my phone. he was wondering why i don't mark our monthsary. haha of course i don't need to. it's all in here <3 but lately, i have found the calendar of good use . i have missed him so much these past few weeks since we barely see each other. sooo here's a rundown of the calendar entries i have so far.

april 16,2007
"My flashie SO HAPPY he got his katana cage already! Yey! :)"

--- He was so happy he got a new pair of shoes already. :) I'm sooo happy to see his face light up because of it. Not a lot of people know, but this guy, he's so selfless. There was never a time when we went out to go malling or just window shopping that he would think of buying stuffs for himself. It has always been "Charles would like this." "Bagay kaya sa kanya ito?" He thinks of his brothers first. That's why I can't help but be angered by the people who think they know this guy so much. If they think he's selfish, then they don't know him at all. I can't help but smile by the way he has put his family first above all his priorities. Actually, not a long time ago, he was kind of not like this. hehe As Kaye would put it, the things that have been happening are "blessings in disguise" because he became mature already. You know, fit for his age. Fit for a man like him. Some people ask me if I'm saddened by the fact that he forgets important things about the two of us, or if I get jealous of the things he thinks about. I won't be a hypocrite and say that it was okay, but that was at first. As I get to know him, I realize the things he wants in life. I understand him. I love him even if he's an amnesiac. haha For the second question, I don't need to be the center of his world. I know my place. :) I'd rather be right beside helping him through it all than be the only thing that matters to him. I think it's too childish to wish that I only have his attention. That's crazy. And as I watch him from afar, I smile because I know he's making his life worth while. I don't need to be his princess. I want to be his friend that he can always count on. Nothing else matters to me than seeing him fulfilled because he's making his dreams come true and I know it's all for the betterment of his family and own personal choices. :)

april 17, 2007
"cute sweet talk at the raya club house steps. :)"
--- this was one of the days that i terribly missed him. haha to my surprise, he calls me up to say that he's on his way to my house already. :) that just made my day! to find out that he asked law that law stayed at ate carla's place longer meant so much to me. i'm a sucker for his cute sweet deeds. haha that just meant he wanted to be with me for a longer time, and so did i. it was funny cause we sat at the cemented steps of the club house. hugged like we didn't see each other for months, but oh well i just love it! :D we talked and talked. we were like kids. haha being the amnesiac that he is (sorry flashie), everything that he does for me means the world to me. he rarely does something special, but when he does, they all become unforgettable. i love the fact that he's oozing with spontaneity. some are just short but wow. :) they're too cute or just sooo funny. haha


may 1, 2007
"phone call from flashie.. i miss him.. :("

---we were supposed to be together by early morning, but for some reason, mom doesn't allow me. it was a really bad day for me. i mean, it's summer, and it's break. this is the only time that we could always be together. i have actually anticipated that we would be together most of the time since i just had a hell of a term in the past three months. now that hell term's over. i want to spend time with him and my friends, but now, i'm restricted to only a few days. darn. i was supposed to go out with him in the afternoon na lang, but then he said we can't cause it was labor day and it was dangerous outside. oh wow. so i was stuck at home feeling so exhausted because of my parents' hot heads. i love the night cause i got to talk to him for like 11 minutes. he never fails to make me smile even when i'm soo stressed out.

may 3, 2007
"this can probably pass as one of the most unforgettable days.. :D waw i just love it!"

---this is far by the best day in the past 2 weeks. :) we were together from 9am to 1120 eating mcdonald's and just hugging and weeee.. haha i can recall that he talked about a childhood memory. :) h was talking about an earthquake that happened when he was little in their old house that they rented. hah! i still remember the details.. haha:D when he was relating the story, i couldn't help but stare at him. he looked so adorable like a kid! HAHA it was funny. :D after training, we watched spiderman 3 but to fill our empty stomachs, we ate pepperoni pizza and a very laaamig mango shake with banana and peach i think! sarap super.. :D then watched the movie at 545pm. i can remember we were both in shock as in shocked talaga because of spidey and the police's daughter's kiss. as in we were like "oh my gosh. oh no! that was their kiss!" waaaah! HAHA picture moment super. and he kept on teasing me because i got teary-eyed. i didn't cry i swear, but oh well, he was laughing his heart out and it was worth the tease. :) aaand then we went somewhere in taft and weeeee.. hahaha:D

may 6, 2007
" soo into missing him right now and suddenly, i see his name on a jollibee cashier girl here in zambales. 211pm"
--- we had our team building for three days and two nights. i have to say, even if it sounds bad, revenge was sweet.. HAHAHA sorry rookies. :D buuut i hated one particular instance, he called me telling me about our deal. i wasn't supposed to drink, but if it were really up to me, i wouldn't drink. i was dead drunk seriously. i couldn't walk properly nor stand up. you couldn't blame me since i was the first person one among the rookies and sophies to drink since i was nearest to the seniors. so making the whole story short, i got pretty annoyed by the fact that someone told flashie that i was drunk that night. it sounded like i indulged myself with alcohol, but that wasn't the case. i know there was a hint of disappointment when he called me although he says that it's ok and he wasn't mad. i hate the fact that the report made me look like i broke my promise when i didn't. i hate breaking my promises especially to people close to me. sooo anyway, may 6, everybody noticed my poker face at lunch. and they were like "hindi bagay sayo. nakakainis na you look that way". it's because of the miss seriously. i miss him. :( and i haven't had a decent talk with him in three days. and then when i decided to buy yum burger for baon (hihihi), i looked around and funny, i fixed my eyes last on the cashier girl and her name was glenn. stupid. cheesy. but that just brightened my day. God knows exactly how to make me smile. :) and then we had the "chase experience". it was cute cause we were describing where we were, and it was so exciting cause i knew he was so near na. :) and our rendezvous was the best. :)

i'll write the next entry in my next post because this has become far too long. haha:)